Je suis

One of the few phrases I remember from my 3+ years of French, it means "I am." Or more accurately, "I am in the state of being." This weekend, I am going to attempt to do just that: be. A few of the significant people in my life are out of town this weekend, and I will miss them all. But in the time that they are gone, I have a specific goal in mind. Yes, I would like to clean my house. And yes, I would like to get to some of those projects that never actually get done. But even more than that, I would just like to step back from the "doing" and allow myself to "be" for a few moments. I don't really know what that will look like; perhaps a long walk with no destination, an evening with a good book and some coffee, a pad of paper and the thoughts in my head...the possibilities are endless. I wish for the familiar beaches I grew up with - to go wander and observe and soak in the beauty. But in their absence, I am certain I will make do.